4 years

Yesterday would have marked my parents 10 year anniversary. Today marks 4 years since they past away. Who ever said that time heals all hearts obviously had not lost both of their parents when they were 20.
There is not a day that goes by that I don't think about them and cry. I miss them so much and no amount of wishing will ever bring them back. My mom was my best friend. I went to her with everything. It makes me so mad and upset that they will not and have not been there for all of the big milestones in our life. They were not there to see me get married, they will not be there to see my children, they have not gotten to see Nathan and Savannah grow up and they will not be there for John's big milestones. Time doesnt heal your heart when your little brother and sister tell you that they can not remember the sound of their parents voices or remember what their parents look like without a picture to look at. Time doesnt heal your heart, time only allows you to learn how to cope when other people are around. Time allows you to learn how to put on a brave face for people.
It upsets me so much when people are ungrateful for what they have and who they have in their life. If only you really knew how short of a time we have here on Earth. I would give everything I had just to hug my parents one more time and tell them how much I love them and how much they mean to me. I know that they will always live on in my heart and in my memories. I know that I have two angels watching over me.
I love you mom and dad